Chicago only has one good jazz station (sigh) and tonight, seriously, I think it's Rasta night. Or at least Reggae. Lots of wah pedalin, singing of lovin', dreadlocks, fightin' for freedom mon, Set us free, Oh Lord... I really wanted some mellow jazz to read in bed to. Oh well.
So today I was noodling around online, trying to see if you can find my (b)log by Googling various keywords - I came up short. I did, however, find this one guy's cancer blog. He's got the same thing I do (ALL) and is blogging about it. He was actually diagnosed exactly three months before I was. Cool. Anyway, his blog is pretty funny. He's in San Francisco at UCSF, and it looks like we're getting similar treatments. He has a lot more and longer hospital stays than my plan though and slightly different drugs. Anyway, it was weird reading the words of someone who's going through the same thing I am. Also, this dude has posted pictures of everything. There are pictures of his bone-marrow biopsies, which freaked me out. I looked at them and was just like, "Holy crap, that's scary looking." Because, when they're doing it to you, you don't know what it looks like. The needle is bigger than I thought. He also had pictures of his spinal tap. YAY. I get that in a week. Awesome. The other funny thing is that he wrote that his doctors approved "special brownies" because his painkillers weren't working all that well, and he needed something to keep his spirits up every once in a while. Only in California. Sheesh. If I even mentioned that to my doctors, they'd probably fall over and start twitching on the floor. My doctor freaked out when I told her I was driving by myself. Oh, and hey, is it alright if I consume pot brownies? K, thanks. Haha. But yeah. The other thing it made me realize is that I have been extremely lucky in terms of my reaction to the treatments. Knock on wood I guess, but really, nothing bad has happened to me. I feel back to normal now. I'm going to yoga tomorrow, and I'll probably work out before or after. I'm eating regularly (I had gum today for the first time since December!), and I feel totally healthy. Apparently, in reaction to one of the drugs, this guy's blood started clotting, specifically in his brain, causing severe and long headaches. Thank God, nothing like that has happened to me. And aside from the finger numbness, I've had no lasting or significant side-effects. Haha, I've got cancer, but I'm not sick. I hate telling people that I have cancer, because it sounds so much worse than it is for me. Oh well. I can only pray that my lack of reaction and awesome recoveries from the drugs keep happening these next six months. And I'm sure they will. There will be hell to pay if they don't; I'll be pissed. And on that most pleasant note, I'ma gonna head out for the evening. And by out I mean one foot to my super-comfy bed. Today was a good day. Oh, and I just want to say, in case anyone wasn't sure, Thank You so much to everyone who has offered me support and prayers. I know I'm doing so well partly because of you all and your kind thoughts. I appreciate them so much. And I don't know who all reads this thing now, but I want to hug each and all of you. Thanks for, for some reason unbeknownst to me, returning to my ramblings and for being freaking awesome. Have a spectacular Sunday with me and GO BEARS!