going to die... must..... blog.......... I started the chemo today. My body is currently revolting against the 3 IV drugs and 9 pills I have forced into it today. goo. short blog. few capitals. I feel like I have the flu, only moreso. I have not, however, thrown up. I also have orange urine. Yes, orange. A little out of season, but I'll deal. One of the drip-drugs was red. red + yellow = orange! (I think). I haven't eaten since 10 am this morning, but I soup is on the way. So I hope everyone eats something delicious for me tonight because it could be months until I get my normally ravenous appetite back. Okay, I'm going to go back to cuddling with my bear. She's soft and squishy and doesn't complain if I squeeze too hard. note my irregular thought-process. We'll blame that one on the fever. goodnight.